I never thought I would loathe to give up the baby so much.
I have always liked to go to work, but I am very resistant to returning to work.
Before giving birth to the baby, I always vowed that after giving birth, I would give it full control to my mother-in-law who especially likes the child. Even if I took it back to my hometown, it would be no problem. I would work as usual.
However, the baby has completely changed since birth. This concern is too warm and heavy…
There is still one month to go to work: my heart is aching.
My maternity leave has already ended, and the one-month leave I asked for from my unit will soon expire.
Before, I had an agreement with my teammates and grandma to let grandma take the baby and I went to work.
But when I think of going to work, I feel anxious and uneasy. I worry that my baby will not adapt to it after leaving me. I am even more worried that my grandmother will not take good care of my baby.
Before, [my heart ached] was just a word to me and I had never experienced it before, but at the moment it was most appropriate to describe my heart…..
I grafted this anxious mood on my husband, playing coquetry and crying with him. Fortunately, my husband was more considerate of me and gently hugged me and said:
[It’s okay, Mom is here, I’ll talk to her, and I’ll listen to you in raising babies. If you don’t want to go to work next year, we won’t go.]
My husband’s words are very comforting, but I am still not at ease. I will try my best to arrange my baby’s daytime life before going to work.
There are still two weeks to go to work: buy buy bought and tidied up
With two weeks left, I have to buy all the things Eva needs after work as soon as possible.
The exclusively breast-fed baby has not yet started to add supplementary foods. When the baby and grandmother are half a year old, it is time to add supplementary foods.
The list of needs has been prepared for a long time. Purchase according to the list: rice noodles, snacks, straw cups, bottle racks, baby fences, wardrobes and other items that need to be installed and cleaned are prepared in advance.
When my husband goes to work during the day, I wait for her to fall asleep and work on these things.
He is full of energy and not sleepy at all.
In the evening, Eva went to bed, washed her clothes, classified her clothes in different seasons, cleaned her toys, tossed and turned until 12 o’clock every day, and got up at 7 o’clock the next day to make breakfast.
My husband said that I was filled with chicken blood and the whole person was a little crazy, but I didn’t feel sleepy and tired at all. I just wanted to prepare and put everything the baby might need as well as possible.
One week before work: Cultivation Bottle Hello
After I went to work, the baby had to eat the bottle, so I had to cultivate it in advance so as not to starve the baby. The refrigerator was full of milk stored before, which was just taken out for the baby to eat.
The baby was very good. I thought I might have to be hungry for several hours before drinking. I didn’t think the baby drank after 10 minutes without insisting. I didn’t cry yet. It was a surprise.
However, I was still worried about the baby’s resistance, so I insisted on giving her a bottle at night. After two nights and five days, the baby adapted well and even didn’t want to eat me.
I didn’t give my baby my milk these days, and I didn’t feel the milk rising all the time, so I didn’t take any extra inhalation. In addition, I stayed up late every day and ate irregularly. I even returned my milk, and I also suffered from insomnia……
Two days before the end of maternity leave: start chasing milk,
The baby is less than 6 months old and too young. I think I have to chase the milk.
When preparing to drink some high-fat soup, Clove’s mother wrote an article on chasing milk in time. I realized that I should have a good rest and eat regularly.
But because I am too anxious and nervous, insomnia is even more serious.
The mood is also relatively poor. When my husband comforted me but failed, he had a quarrel with him. After venting, insomnia ended.
After that, I started chasing milk wildly, inhaling it every two hours, eating regularly and sleeping for a while during the day.
The baby works better than the breast pump. Every time the breast pump finishes sucking, the baby will be fed.
Thank you for not completely abandoning my breast without milk because of the smoothness of the bottle, and still sucking hard…
There is hope of chasing milk!
It’s just that washing and disinfecting breast pumps is really a tedious job. I regret being lazy.
Go to work on time! Give the baby to Grandma at ease.
It is strange that the baby wakes up at 7 o’clock every day. I don’t know if I feel the nervousness of going to work. After I get up at 6 o’clock in the morning, the baby wakes up.
After washing and tidying up myself, I began to change my urine bag, clothes, washing, toys and small interactions.
I finished breakfast in 5 minutes and said goodbye to Eva. Eva was lying on his small bed with toys listening to music and playing by herself. Seeing me smiling at me in the past, I looked at his fat and lovely smiling face and my heart melted instantly. I told him that my mother was going to work and could only see her at night. Then I rushed out of the house with tears……
It was still raining outside, and my husband gave me a car. I bowed my head and didn’t let him see the tears I couldn’t control.
The baby’s grandmother took two babies and thought she was very experienced. Besides, she also had more ideas. I don’t think she may listen to me, so I don’t call, ask my husband or watch through the camera during the day.
I know that she likes children very much and will take them well. There is nothing to worry about, but if I can’t accept the way she takes her baby, or hear her crying, my class is not good either. If I can’t help interfering with her grandmother and annoying her again, my husband is embarrassed, so I simply turn a blind eye.
Let her relax and get along with Eva… … …
The first experience of a week at work,
I think about it quietly at work and rush home after work.
It is certain to miss Eva, but I miss Eva in my heart during working hours, and there is no feeling of missing affecting my work. But as soon as I leave work, I can’t help rushing home and wish to see Eva the next second.
With one more person in the family, the living habits should be readjusted again.
The kitchen cabinet and refrigerator filled Grandma Eva with real things, and the drawer where I frozen my breast milk also let Grandma Eva put the wrapped wonton directly into it and freeze it……
Every meal is cooked too much…
There is no room in the refrigerator, but buy buy has to buy…
Maybe it’s getting along at the beginning, and I’m not used to it either. My husband always says that Grandma Eva has so many in the refrigerator, so buy them after eating. But when I think that she is the only one to accompany Eva every day, this loneliness is also a kind of suffering, I advise my husband not to say it.
Perhaps buy buy’s purchase is also a kind of vent for her, not to mention that women know best……
Always unable to understand, but always want to understand
However, with further consideration, I cannot be rational about [occupying] the baby.
It’s rare to take a weekend. I want to spend more time with my baby and hug him. It’s better to let Grandma rest and relax. I specially let my husband take her out for a stroll.
I went out and left her for a while. After I came back, Grandma kept an eye on the baby and gave her rice noodles after the meal. After I finished it, she immediately picked it up and fed it.
In the afternoon, I took her out to stroll in the street. I took her with my waist stool and held her. As a result, her grandmother repeatedly asked for her to hold her, saying that I was tired. I said that I was not tired and wanted to hold her more.
I was so angry that I almost couldn’t control it without taking two steps, but I refrained from talking and asked her to take her over……..
Later, I thought that although the old man was invited to take care of her after work and needed constant adjustment in many things, it was really rare for the old man to help take care of her.
After all, the child is so young that I have to return to work again. There is no old man to take care of me, nor is it to send him to a nursery, nor is it safe to ask a nanny.
The previous generation gave up their comfort zone and came to a brand-new city to help bring their babies to cook. This is a great effort. No matter how many complaints they have, no matter how many helplessness they have, it is better to communicate with the elderly and use some means to control their emotions when necessary so that they can get along with each other comfortably as soon as possible.